Why I Haven’t Touched a Soccer Ball in Two Weeks

It’s Monday afternoon here in Buenos Aires. The spring light is spilling over the streets. I’m sitting outside a café, feeling the breeze, and thinking about how much has changed in me this past month.

Not in my doing, but in my being.

This is a short letter about three real things: soccer, Spanish, and coaching. How my being has created each of them (the good and the bad).

I’ll share the stories. I’ll share the learnings. And I’ll share an invitation at the end for anyone who wants to experience the power of consciously creating their being before Christmas.

Let’s go.

Soccer taught me that doing without being is burnout.

I haven’t touched a soccer ball in two weeks.

That was a hard concession to make to myself. For anyone who knows my initial commitment, that might sound strange.

But I hit a wall.

I had a “good” goal: join a pro soccer team in Argentina, train, and return to the U.S. for the 2026 college season.

The goal was a tidy and shiny thing to tell myself and others. But underneath it there was a quieter hunger: to be seen as enough.

My subconscious being had become: I am that I can only succeed if I’m on a pro team.

Rule of thumb: whenever I believe there’s only one way for something to work, I get skeptical.

So I chased. I trained. I measured. I woke up every morning to the scoreboard in my head. Team or no team? And I forgot how the ball felt under my foot. I forgot the feel of the field.

Then, at some point, the tiredness won. My body said stop. My heart said stop. I stopped.

I let the dream die. It’s been two weeks without a ball.

But that pause created an opening.

It allowed me to remember the joy. The aliveness of being on the field, of touching the ball, of moving freely.

I never truly understood what people meant by ‘love the game.’

Now I am beginning to see. Just replace ‘game’ with ‘truth.’

Loving the game is loving my truth. To play soccer.

For me, not loving the game was loving the idea of what that truth could give me: enoughness.

It was reflected in my being that I wasn’t enough.

Loving the idea is fueled by fear and results in burnout. Loving my truth, is fueled by love.

That’s the beauty of being: it brings you home to the energy that burns true.

Now, when I do play again: I am that I love to play and can be an All-American at any point on any field.

I am powerful, free, and loving.

Spanish reminded me that being imperfect is freedom.

I’ve been studying Spanish for years, but something shifted this trip.

I stopped trying to sound perfect.

I stopped hiding my mistakes.

I started being me in Spanish.

And when I did, everything opened. I started having real conversations. I got invited into friend groups. I laughed at myself, and people laughed with me.

This way of being — free to mess up and be misunderstood — is now taking me to a whole new level of Spanish.

Most of my friends here speak only Spanish. When we hang out, I understand maybe 80%, sometimes 60%. But it doesn’t matter. I’ve become fluent in my being: I am open, present, imperfect.

My fluency in being has created my path to fluency in Spanish.

Coaching revealed that being is the ultimate transmission.

Two months ago, I spent five weeks with my coach, John Patrick Morgan. Watching someone live so freely in their being taught me how contagious being is.

He showed me the power we have to intentionally create our being.

My way of being leveled up because of his. I know that even a one degree shift in my being now, will have monumental impacts on my life for years to come.

By intentionally shifting my being in Hawaii, I created freedom and power to come to Argentina and go after my truth.

I made a decision from a new state of being that changed my life. That’s what inspired me to create Being With Sessions.

As the holidays approach, I’m gifting 10 free Being With Sessions to people ready to create new possibilities in their lives. People who feel the pull to live in truth instead of expectation. To finish out this year in a powerful way.

You’ll walk away with a clearer sense of your being. When you gain clarity on who you want to be, you cut through the noise and confusion around you. You will align with what you truly want to create in the world. Not the version of you you think you should be.

Because one small shift in being today changes the trajectory of your entire life.

If that speaks to you, you can sign up here or respond to this email.

And if someone in your life needs this, pass it on.

Freedom spreads through transmission.

Shadow work showed me the power of what I resist.

I’ll be at a shadow retreat in Miami at the end of this month. The idea of going into what I resist used to feel terrifying. Now it feels like going home.

It’s the next step in this journey. Every part of us we resist holds a piece of our power.

There is a strange alchemy in the shadow: what you avoid is frequently the door to the energy you need. I see my resistances as opportunities to further free myself. My tiredness around performance disguised a deep hunger for permission to play and mess up.

This journey of freedom, love, and power is only beginning. When my being changes, my whole life changes.

Closing thought

Breathe in.

Breathe out.

If we are always breathing in media, books, podcasts, information, and news, we run the risk of passing out.

With a breath in, we also need a breath out.

When we breathe out we take what we’ve learned and breathe it out into the world through action.

Don’t forget to breathe out.

See you next week,

BB

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